The process of becoming my true self means:

• fighting the hands that hold me back, realizing those hands have been my own
• tuning out the lies I’ve heard, realizing the voice has belonged to me
• hearing the song that’s in my heart, knowing the lyrics belong to Him

It’s always been in me. It’s time to live it out.

Even when the night seems darkest, God is still there.

It’s great because God is not a fair weather friend; he isn’t just with us when the going is good but also when the going is rough. There is nothing we can do to make him love us more or less than he already does. His love is perfect, endless, knows no conditions, and he gives it to us.

The Bible tells us also that he keeps no record of our wrongs. I wondered then why I feel so lost or sad after my sin. I realized it’s because I keep a record of my wrongs. I sometimes carry them around with me, remind myself of them, dwell on them, regret them. But if I confess that sin, he forgives me! Instead of playing the memory game with my sin, I need to put that same energy into drawing nearer to God, praising him, praying to him, and thanking him for his mercy, grace, and love!

I think that that is when I’ll begin to appreciate, accept, and live in the gift of salvation; realizing that God’s love is not like the love of people. He doesn’t just love me when I’m up, good, trustworthy, honest… He loves me always. And when I realize how powerful that is I think I’ll start to seek his presence significantly more than I do now.

It’s been too long since I’ve been still.

No TV, no phone, no internet. Just still. In the quiet of the day. Still.

In the quiet moments my heart and soul are free to hear the still, small voice within me. The voice of my God, my Saviour, my friend. It feels strange to sit here quietly, yet it is distinctly familiar. An old habit, once lost, but being rekindled. Still. Entering the peace that only His presence brings.